It’s New Years Eve, which means the beginning of the completely cliche posts about resolutions. Top of most people’s list? Find love, lose weight, and be happy.
Resolutions to me are less about good habits and trying things you have never done, but instead are goals that you set in order to make you grow into the person you are and who you are meant to be in the future. Forcing you to be a better version of yourself this time next year.
Last year, I was a different person. I was miserable in life, empty, fat, and going nowhere in my mind. I was going to school six hours from the family I missed constantly, away from the person I wanted to be close to the most, and having to buy pant sizes that made me feel like crap about myself.
Fast forward one year: I moved to Seattle, lost the weight to get down two pant sizes, am near my family, going to a school I feel blessed to attend, working at a job that was only a dream, and a stronger person in the end. I made those goals that I was going to change things, I wasn’t going to complain and dream — I was going to make my dream happen. So after an eventful 2013, what am I going to make a goal in 2014?
1. Cut out those people who are negatively influencing my life. I want to cut those people out who are not forcing me to look at the world differently, challenging me, or good for my soul deep down in the end. While people cut out sweets or junk food on their lists, instead, I cut out those people who are negatively impacting my mental health. Stick to those people who will fight with me, but in the end love me for everything I am. Instead of having those friends who exasperate me because all they want is constant drama, I will keep the friends who will still gossip with me, but talk about more important issues. I will keep those friends who really show me how beautiful friendship really is.
2. Stop being an introvert. I need to start taking up the offers to go out, no matter how tired I am after a long night of work. No matter who it is — old and new friends, going out with them could open doors to people I never thought I would meet. It could turn into becoming closer to those who are simple work friend or simple school friends into friendships that could mean the world. You never know where simple friendships will end up with the right people.
3. Take a risk with my heart. Instead of telling the wrong people the things that come easy, instead tell the right people the things that are harder to say. Whether it’s “I’m sorry” or “I love you” tell them. Because if I don’t, one day it will be too late and I’ll always wonder what if. With that, I need to stop being so afraid of being hurt and instead embrace it.
4. Start grocery shopping because impulsively buying meals when I’m hungry is really getting to be expensive and cutting into my clothing budget.
5. Don’t be afraid to speak my mind. Before, I’ve kept all of my thoughts inside of my head. The thoughts that are true, those that will set me free from my internal prison of “I’m too scared to say this”. Good or bad, I need to start saying these things to release them. Those who will not appreciate them will leave, but those who cannot deal with what is your truth — are they really worth having in your life?
6. Really figure out what the hell to do with my hair. I’m still clueless and have no idea.
7. Be that person who inspires people to do the impossible. Be the girl that people look to and say, “Look at her, look at how she lives her life, look at how she goes after what she wants, look at how strong she is – I admire that girl.” I want to be THAT girl. I want to strive to be that person.
8. Consistently work hard and realize that taking the shortcuts and cutting corners will not help you in the end, but instead only keep you from grasping the goal at hand.
9. Buy more shoes, because really — shoes are always needed.
10. Appreciate all of the wonderful things I have in this life. Appreciate all of these little things that make my life unique, that make me happy. Find happiness in the little things.